TheTruth(;

i dont care what car you drive, where you live. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone. If your clothes are this years cutting edge. If your trust fund is unlimited. If you are a A-List, B-list, or never heard of you list. i only care about the words that flutter from your mind. they are the only thing you truely own. the only thing i will remember you by. i will not fall in love with your bones and skin. i will not fall in love with the places you've been. i will not fall in love with anything but the words that flutter from your extraordinary mind. . <3333

ThirdDay(;

Today, i got up latee! :O welll i stayed up allll night i could not sleep to save my lifee! hahaha me and my roomie ordered pizza @ 2am haha ! :) then i couldnt sleep till like 6:30? then i woke up at 7:10? hahaha then i got ready, but today i got thru my final tweeks of my paper, and i gotta say im really satisfied with it <3 hahaa my mentor jordan dresser? yea that last name is REAL ! lol but he's cool&funny. . but i had nothing to do today because i finshed my peice so they told me to go around ask people some questions, about how the conference is going for them and what they look foward to seeing. etc etc but i did some Audio interviews, and Video interviews (: it was fun. . still waiting to do some more when people show up before the reception. hahaha (: OMG OMG! i cannot wait for mall of america ! :)) haha hopefully i can stay awake ! :O lol but yeaaa breakfast of champions, lol *insider* but its GummyWorms&RedBull<3 lmao. . but yeaa just an update iguess (:

SecondDay(:

the second day went a little more smoother, we had a meeting about what we were going to write about and i first chose to write about the Dream Act . . but the sources i found ended up being like not active? or whatever. . but so i figured it would be better to do a peice on NAJA because the board members and students were here so i figured it would be a nice turn out. so i did some more digging on NAJA and its history, then i came up with question i could ask them. . ha the rest of the day i was trying to find a place to eat. . lol they gave us money for food throughout the week, and we have breakfast together and lunch and dinner we go out with eachother. but so far i've had a blast, i wondered the city and almost got lost haha ! :) but i found my way back. lol and i just chilled the rest of the day. . . (:

FirstDay(:

the first day here in minnesota was kinda weird well maybe i was just tired? haha but i survived the plane ordeal and i give myself kudos for that ! :) haha but yeaa i was the last high school student to come in, everyone else was here already. . there are 16 students participating in NAJA. 6 are high school students, and 10 college students. . and i met my roomie, her name is Lizzy Tiger (: yeaa its REALLY TIGER (: haha but yeaa she's cool . and then they brought pizza to the hotel for us. . and we basically just unpacked and talked, then went to sleep . . hahah

MINNESOTA !

is getting closer & CLOSER! :D haha im excited/scared ! HAHA ! but im sure i'll be okaay? THE SKY IS MEANT FOR THE STARS, AND THE STARS DONT FALL OUTTA THE SKYY RIGHT ? ? * lets hope so! TheSky Is MY PHOBIA! :P

Sorry Blog! :O

You've been neglected! ha but i've been busy with work, kyo<3, family stuff, and etc etc ! ha but work was good, i met alotta new funny people ! ha & we had alotta crazy times ! :D haha like when we highhjacked carmens denali ! :D ha goodtimes lol or when we all were hiding in the eagle class and almost GOT FIRED ! THAT WAS NOT FUNNY! iwas MAD ! >/ i dnt need tht shxt on my record ! i intend on working there again so ican be closer to kyo ! :D &after my session was over i am now considering working during the school year as well! :) haha but for now i only have one more week left im going to volunteer starting monday @ECEC (: ! which should be fun, ha and kyo is getting older

Back &Forth

Eeeh , things are okay i guess for now . . but seems like everytime i sayy that its like spilling the salt &i jiinx myselff :P but yeaa  we'll see how faaar this goes . . :P

my first eagle feather, (cracker style)

so as the only two? people who read my blogg already know. . i have these two favorite teachers. . :) ESB&BK ALL DAY! <3 &well these two ladies figured i'd be real funny to bring me a gift on my first day of work, being that welll . . .it's not like we chill every day ? ! haha but im sure we would if we could ;) haha but yeaa so anyways, they came down the road to my workplc. to visit Mr.KyoConger(: [KC] and attempted to watch him walk in person (i told her to just look it up on youtube) but noooo lmao . . but yeaa that didn't happen EPIC FAIL :O but it was funny ESB trynna get Kyo to blow a kiss&high five her hahah x) *flashbackk* :) but yeaa so we talked for a while, then well we can't sit around all day like a certain group of "top flight security" i know ;P hahha but yea they left and i went to take kyo back to class cause i jacked him . . .& i opened my gift, hahaha whaddoya know . . i freakin eagle feather carve outta wood hahaha &of course it HAD to be in a Owl Bag! haha but that was REAL funnny haha good times :) but yeaa thats all for now. .. ta ta for now :)

. . . . .

if you would let me love you

 i swear i'd put nothing above you

its your love that keeps me going

you&me that i want

if only you would let me in,

so our love can begin

day after day

beginning to end nothing else matters

its only me&you

and you know that's true.

Why are you interested in the field of Journalism? (:

My interest for Journalism is behind many reasons; I personally feel that this is my natural calling. I took photography at my high school when I was in the 8^th grade, and my teacher who also taught yearbook suggested I take yearbook the following year. I was the only freshman to take yearbook that year, at which most of my work was included in the yearbook, in which I became very proud of. When I finally realized just how good I was, well what can I say I just fell in love with it. That summer I applied for a summer job at my reservations local newspaper, and when my projects were published I felt nothing but fulfillment. You can assume that after that there was no turning back; I was in it for the long haul. I’m interested in making Journalism my future career because I feel strongly about it, and all that comes with it. There is nothing I love more than capturing that one special moment in my pictures, and describing it with my words.  Nothing else can partly come close to that feeling I have, it’s something that not many words can explain.

& Another Thing .

for future references : please excuse my language i tend to be very blunt with words when i'm angry or sad. . . so sorry . . :P

& Another Thing .

for future references : please excuse my language i tend to be very blunt with words when i'm angry or sad. . . so sorry . . :P

The World Is Not Over .

i repeat the world is not over! :) i got to playy basketball last night @my game at skyline high ? , im soo happy now. . x) we won by like . . shoot i dont even know. .  i played kinda crappy too . . >:P but it was good :)) &&we're staying overnight in prescott next friday? but idk if ima go cause i have work and their leaving early friday morning . . :O i wanna go tho. . hmm i still gotta figure that out. . but ionno &&i found out that the gym is open everyday? at 3 so ima be there more often now. . :) so i won't play all crappy again . . haaha :)) but yeaa &&yesterday i tried to call everyone and ask where the game was.. . loser's didn't even know! got me lost &i missed the first game at 5 ! :O but yeaa &&im still worried about kelcie. . . :P she was like crying when i called her. . but she didnt get a chance to tell me whats wrong, &i almost went over there. . but someone was there so i couldn't but ionno i wish i had myphone. . atleast i would know whats bothering her. . i feel kinda helpless. . :// &thats not a good feeling ! but ionno thats a whole other story. . . ta ta for now :)

Summer Basketball .

i dont think im going to get a chance to play summer basketball . i cannot believe this. . that was the only thing i asked for, i love<3 basketball , it keeps me sane ! but now i guess its not gonna happen. . ://  UGHH!! like WTF!?! im soo mad i can't even thinkk straight . .

I dont know why i try .

i woke up real earrly this morning, thinking i'd be cool &make you guys breakfast&coffee . . but i don't know why i try to please youu , that is literally impossible to make you happy . . i dont know how. . (dont get me wrong, ilovekyo<3 more than anything. ) But how is it that im NOT the one w/ a kid Or Dropped out of high school . . &refuse to get a job. . im doing literally ALL of those things! >/ But Some how IM THE FXXKUP ? yeaa thats REAL nice. . You feel better about yourself now ?  ? i hope you do . . i dont know what your problem is, i really don't . . im still in school , i dont do drugs, i got a summer job, &i dont have a kid Or plan on having one . . But your still unhappy. . ? whats your deal ?? i don't know why your trying to play the father figure now, you were completely fine leaving me out for ohh what? 16 YEARS! wow ! now your trynna give a damn ? its too  late for that now. . well i only got two more years, and trust me i'll be out of your way . . .

Linda Vega .

Auntie Linda ; How am i barellyyy finding this out :O ? i can't believe your gone. . you were such a sweet lady . . i remember you chasing me &my brothers around in sunday school , trying to get us to settle down . . you told us that if we didn't settle down we would have to go sit in the boring church w all the old weird people . . maan im going to miss you. . :'/ i really can't believe your gone. . why is it all these stuupid relatives of mine , the ones who do drugs &fucxk around . . never seem to die , after all the wrong they've done ? &&yet a sweet christian woman like yourself has to leave me now ? . . that i will never understand. . but it won't do much now. . your gone. . to a better place. . &as much as it hurts me to say goodbye . . i knw you will be missed dearly. . i love you Grandma Linda , i never callled you grandma . . i always called you auntie. .  :') R.I.P Linda Vega <3 Shanae

Summer .

At first i couldn't wait for summer , but now that its here. i wish i could go back in time ! haha . class wasn't actually legitt , but it was better then being stuckk here. :P i was better off in ms.P's room(: haha . but really tho . . blaah everythinggs going wrong. . :/ i didn't get the job i wanted, i dont have my phone, i can't go anywhere cause : my parents think ima get highh ? like WTF i dont even do THAT! !! retards ! Anyyywayys enough about them, they piss me off like no one else can ! couldn't wait like 5mins when they got home to start yelling ? geezz, ANGER MANAGEMENT ? :O shooot, i think soo. . but yeaa &&what a waste of a last day at school . . THE BLIND SIDE ? REALLY ?  &that stuuupid kid w/ the ginormous FRO wouldn't shut up &i had to get ms.ESB to do her job haha ! x) but yeaa i wouldn't have minded a FIELD DAY ? blast some teachers w waterballoons would've been fun ! haha but yeaaa . . hmmm maybe this will get better ? ? blaah thats all for now. . i'll blogg again when it gets exciting ? haha :) byee

o2142o1o

I never thought that this would be,
a one true fantasy,
turned to a tragedy,
but all in reality,
it was you to be the cause of my doom
since that day I changed the game,thoughts of you gone& just left
my brain, I just don't love you anymore,no .

Im Confused .

...................................................................................... :( :/ >:/ :P C; :D :O :'l 
All the above . . . . .. . . . . . . .. . .  . writers block too (writers block face D:< ) hahaha 

you're the one i wanted right from the start
then you shot me down like a bullet to the heart
you made all these promises & told me all these lies
then you went back to her, so now you i dispise.
it doesnt bother me much that u lied & you left
it bothers me more that i wanted you back.
i expected everything to be right & be true.
when the only letdown was me believing you
so go on with your life & all the plans you made
& into your background i will slowly fade.
it doesn't matter anymore i took that chance
& told you how i truely felt, lost in romance.
so now i cant say i regret a thing
the only regret is the regret you bring
you can say its my fault & you can blame me
but i put forth an effort & you didnt see
that i would always be here for you too
that promise today is way over due
b/c i knew it was a lie when you said i love you.
but i know i was telling the 100% truth.

Get A Clue .

I cant be friends with you. . . thats the way it was & thats how it shall remain . . I know your sorry & call me harsh if you will . . but you put me thru alotta shxt & i dont need a repeat to learn my lesson. . all i know is i have my BFF back (: & i dont have you to thank for that. . >/ but anyways get a clue , cause i want nothing to do with you. . what can i say , i guess i thought i saw potential in you. . boy was i wrong. . but NO REGRETS! All this BS made me who i turned out to be today. . &&i know i'll never let anyone come between me &my BFF ever again. . . BW&SC till the end&back again. . o5262o1o(:

What Am I Supposed To Do ?

Ever since the day i met you things were different, you were pretty cool to hang with. . But now your just a real mess. . you ain't even close to being the same person i met . . things have been sort of hectic now a days, first you broke down all my bridges with everyonee. . includingg my best friend. .
____________________shanaee(:________________________

Graduation Night (:

Soo im getting ready to wish all these mofo's a long happy goodbyeee well that is -minus hot pants !! hahaha ! *insiderr* but yeaa . . i gotta saay i really personally think some of these people have been here too long. haha but some people were pretty chill , i would be okaay if they took a victory lap :)) *insider* x) but yeaa geez. . today was such a hassle. . :O hah it took security LITERALLY all day to catch me. . .

Security .

is dumb. short, plain simple. i admit i shouldn't have been out of class and all but if they really wanted to do something about it they would've caught me the first 40 mins i passed them by. But to walk by me all nonchalant like its all good, is dumb. then when theirs like 15 mins left of class they finally buck up to try and  do their jobs. BS! :/ &&they took kelcie's ipod ! :O when (for once) i wasn't even listening to it. . Fools. . their a mess, dont know how to do their job. . the headphones were nowhere near my ears so i couldn't be listening to it. . but no suckas can't admit their wrongg & so they take it anyways ! BS ! they dont have a clue as to what to do. . NEW SECURITY PEOPLE PLEASE! :P Ones who KNOW how to do their job. . . thats all i gotta say about that . . (forrest gump<3) haha x)

What I Hate Most :P

1. Annoying people who think their better than everyone. . >//
2.Fake People, who talk bullshxt like their all cool. When really, No One likes youu.
3.Teachers Who are REALLY too Old to teach :O Retire alreadyy!
4.Not Havingg my Phone! >:O
5.Immature Kids: its funny to hang w these kids cause their kinda funny, but then its like come on now. . dont be so childish. . :P

Thats all for noww ?

BK .

Burger King // Blood Killa LMFAO // Also known as Barbie Key :O but we all know thats a HUGE liee ! cause she will always be known as PANIZZO! :)) legally and illegally :D hahah changing her name is still debatable cause Brian still has that UGLYYYY tattoo . . :O ha , so yea now you know BK(:

ESB .

what does that stand for ? ? East Side Blood . . NOO ! Erica Suzanne (maybee) Bayles (: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! XD Whole NEW meaningg ! :O Im not surre if thats her REAL middle name or her Mexican Illegal name ? haha ! X) kidding but shes scared that ima steall her identityy haha ! we're all on the saaame team here ! haha ! :))

What the heck Goats do ?

So i keep hearing about how weirdos have goats as pets. . . or "Family Members" Like what the heck do they do ? ? ! Thats too funny, x)  Danellianne ? ? LMFAO! *insiderr*

The Whiteboard

So Barb was kinda having one of those days that . . well you know hahah ! :P but anyways i thought i'd cheer her up by writing on this white board in her room. See the thing about Barb(: is she is a racist ! OMG! kidding ! haha but anyways . . we call her a cracker *insiderr* haha its a LONG story. . but yeaa so i invented this little icon that represents her as a "cracker" && i mean its LITERALLY a cracker ! haha ! but yea so i spent like all of my 5th hour drawing on this board, the events that happened this year. haha it was quite hilarious, so i thought. but anyways . . on with the story. . this kid "TwoRoads" we'll call him hahaa ! x) but yeaa he wasn't in class ALL period till about 10 mins left? & he decides to come in & totally mess up the white board i had colored all over! so anyways he pissed me off, like this kids thinks he's hot shxt just coming in and fuxxing everything up. just cause his life sucks (join the club) but seriously that don't mean come in and fxxk stuff up. Its NOT my fault that "tworoads" shxt gets old real quik! haha , not like any of YOUR drawings look half way decent ! haha ! the lesson here. . is dont fxxk with MY art. . cause yours sucsk ! :O Story of HIS life ! :P hhaahah ! :)

RE: Erica Bayles

Because i know my teachers all too well , im sure this is going to be a trending topic to the Erica Bayles story! But NOOOO ! I AM NOT A TRAITOR ! F.Y.I ! :O like i said . . it doesn't count cause your both friends! ;) haha ! sooo, yea ! Just wanted to add that ! :)

Erica Bayles(:

Its crazy how you can see someone majority of the time, and not even know that their not how you think they are. HAHA ! thats how this teacher turned out to be, i thought she was just one of those young teachers that took this job, then got that look on their face. ( like what have i got myself into) yea that look! :) but this woman is crazy! haha i read her blog & let me tell you that revealed the REAL Ms.B! haha ! i laughed the ENTIRE time i was reading! haha x) but the vocab especially got to me, like who uses the word KNICKERS ? ? HAHA ! && the other day she said "GANG'D OUT" Where that originated from, the world may never know. . x) but anyways its sad to say i barely met this lady... But i will surely be taking the Yearbook class next year! (speaking of the yearbook,. . . well thats another story!) but as i was saying . . We gotta stock up the fridge w// some diet dr.pepper ;) &Orange FANTA ! *insiderr* HAHA ! but yeaa . . TTFN ((:

Biology Teacher XP

Keep This On The KeyLowLow:
But My Biology teacher is a REAL nutcase! No joke ! i think she's losing it , i admit there once was a time long ago. That i used to LIKE biology, but if it means dealing with that psycho (they know who they are) HAHA ! i REFUSE to go to that class ! I realize this means nothing now considering the year is over. But really im soo glad this lady will not be around for long. ha , on given days when i just wasn't feeling it i admit i gave her shxt. But only cause she really knows how to push my buttons! >// so that was her own fault. But today i swear she REALLY went all out, How you can write someone up BEFORE the class starts IS RIDICULOUS!! :O i was actually going to be (Productive: in other words there was a possibility i might do some work) but when she did that. . i put all that BS Work into the file marked "Bonfire" & Shand even added something to the file as well. i guess she couldn't fit all of our THREATS & HARRASSMENT ETC. ETC. on ONE paper. . haha But What can i saay . . Just Wanna take the final & Be out of that personally made torture room ! :O

The reason i started this(:

haha ! just for laughs, &&ima just write all the stuff i have down in my head ! :)) haha my twisted mind: you don't even wanna know.

Au'Authum Newspaper(:

HAHAHAHHA ! omg if you know who Ms.Erica Bayles is, ask her to say that ^^^ ! haha ! OMG! that was too funny! :) she was no where close to pronouncing it right! && then she had to bring up the whole CODE TALKERS BOOK! Like WTF? (excuse my languo) But  that ain't even US Ms.B! haha no offense Navajo's O: i cant get sued on this thing riiiight  ? ? i'd like to keep my PerCap! :)) But yea i almost cried when Ms.B tried to say Au'Authum Newspaper((:

Mexican Owl;)

So today at school was pretty sketchy, i wasn't too sure if i wanted to be there. i ended up going, :P haha . the funniest thing all day started with the owl, hah The Mexican Looking Owl! x) Barbie(: brought in this ridiculously looking owl that her "weakkwadagg" husband attempted to carve out! haha ! Yeaa, that "" word means Gaaay in my languo (language).! :) haha ! But as expected, Brian failed. Quite epically i might add, hahah and so i ended up looking at this weird orange green dysfunctional looking owl. It looked like something straight out of a thrift shop in mexico! :O no offense Brian cause i got a few laughs. (:  but its was cute? haha words can't describe. C: but yeaa that was the topic that led to many other funny convo's that went down in Ms.Bayles' room. Hahah !